Good morning, Everone,
May this post find everyone safe and heathy. I was amazed how quickly the weather turned yesterday. I went to Mitchell after work to have dinner and found myself driving back in a very bad storm. I didn't know if I ever mentioned it here, but lighting and thunder scares me ( lol). I need a jacket like they have for pets to keep me calm! I stopped under some bridges for a bit to let the storm "pass" but no luck. Luigi was once again faithful but more than anything, my Lord was faithful to watch over me. Lighting was taking place in every direction and I kept cool as a cucumber, but my Spirit was very nervous. I have a worship CD and I quickly retrieved it and the song "Be Still My Soul" because a light guiding me until I arrived home. I have no desire to go anywhere today, but to be "still" and pray. My week was comprised of a lot of different events. The friend who I am very close at work is leaving us for a better role at another company. I am happy for her, but sad because she has been a light to me; she was the only person who invited me to lunch on the first day. She is a paralegal and helped me navigate some of the initial steps of finding a lawyer when I was going though the divorce. I will miss her greatly
Uncle Sam also decided to remember me by sending me some correspondence and asking for $600 plus from my 2014 taxes. My mom told me this is not uncommon for Uncle Sam to question some things, just need to have my Accountant look into it. It is interesting how some people go and intentionally work under the table to get disability and don't have to report any other I come. I have done everything right and Uncle Sam decides to remember me.I don't understand "why" they didn't tell me right away if I was missing something. They are even charging me interest even though I was just notified.
Once again, I placed the situation at the feet of Jesus.
I have a friend who I reached out early when I loss my job in 2015. He didn't get back until a couple of months ago or so (lol) due to not being active on LinkedIn. I worked with him on a quality project where I was the project manager and reported to him. I learned that he is currently leading the furniture division at Amazon. He asked to connect yesterday. Our call turned into a phone interview for a position in his team. I was asked to follow-up with the application and he will coordinate the second phone interview. It is a role for a project manager and sole contributor. The role requires for someone to be able to drive for results, ability to build relationships, manage execution, solve problems, have drive, analyze data, and need minimum supervision. It sounds more in alignment with my skills. He said it is difficult to get in but it can serve as a good opportunity to get back into the industry and open more opportunities. In the call, he gave me one of the best pieces of advice, when I asked him " are you planning to change roles anytime soon?" He replied, " never pursue a role because you like the manager, make sure the role is something you will like and is a good fit" I was reflecting on his words of wisdom, and it makes sense. I like my manager and director, the only two people that are part of my team. I have done some very good work and "exceeding expectations" as my manager has said repeatedly; however, most days I am treated as an intern. My director just said to me last week, " you are the only person in the company that knows the most about our new business", yes, his statement is very true; however, if they truly would value what I know, they would have defined my position by now and provide me with the proper tools and authority to close the gaps I have identified. I have good relationships with people, but my two key partners that are responsible for managing our Resources, are used to doing what they want. Before I came onboard, we didn't have quality meter data for the external resources, Sweetbasil has now established this process. The reason was "the operators are very difficult to get anything from them" well, that is bull, it only required for me to know what I needed to get and build relationships. We were using estimates for the Market Settlements and now, we are using what is exactly taking placed in real-time. I also established a process to housed it in our internal systems for reporting. I am amazed people that manage these plans did not have such process established before.
I was tasked with another project; to get a city manager who are company has worked for 5 years to try to get information to perform an analysis and solve an issue in questioned. I was encouraged to "bring the legal department if I didn't get though this person" while I was listening, I was thinking, " no, I don't need legal, I need God!". It only took me two months to get what I needed from this person and in the process, I made a friend. The analysis was done and it helped clarified what was in questioned. We didn't have any monthly reporting before and it was another project that was given to me. It was like pulling teeth out from my Accounting partners. One of the things I have come to hate is hearing " we didn't do this before, why we have to have it now?" Any person with some common sense will know that if you don't have some type of reporting to measure performance, you are walking in the dark. The Accountants were pushing back so hard when I was asking questions to where the fuel inputs could be retrieve from. I established a monthly reporting tool and process that shows the total delivery costs per month, MWh, the costs trends for different a areas such as generation, load, etc from previous years and months. It has been used to present to the Executive Board. Everything is real time monthly information presented in the report, except the fuel, those are estimates due to being in month rear when the actuals come in. There was some push back from the Accountants as to when they can make the estimates for the fuel available in July and their story is that because we are using the fuel estimates we are not presenting the exact thing they have in the books. They saw this reporting as something written in stone. My director just communicated that the Accounting manager was anxious about this report and we will not continue with our current process, but wait until they have they information posted. I can't believe it; getting all of the data consolidated and creating the reporting dashboard was a big project and it took a lot of time and effort. Now, because some woman in charge is not getting her way, we need to stop our business to let her get way. My director said that we might have to create a different type of report. I just wanted to tell him " go and have the Accountants do it, at the end of the day, they should know the cost per MWh for the day and month. If an Accountant does not know this nor has this process established, I think he/she is incompetent at his/her job!" I am a good fit for my current role because I am driven, drive for results, and perform well in a fast pace environment, which is exactly what the new Market is. Before the other Market Adminstrator dictate the company when to go potty, and this Market is on,y going to point you to the direction where they have information available to operate our business in this new business environment. I am getting to the point that I don't know if this is good for me. I am working 60 hours a week and the 20 additional hours is not because of me not managing time, but because people are not willing to get engaged in the new business, they want Sweetbasil to do their job. My manager and director are aware and nothing has been addressed. My manager keeps saying " I am so impressed with your work ethic" but what he does see is that even the best working horse at some point has enough. I do a lot of things on top of projects and then I end up picking the slack for others given to me by my own manager and director. For example, it has been a little over two months that I coordinated a call with my partners in the Market and director and another woman who is repinsible to establish the process for acquiring additional transmission and interconnection. My director and this person have been working with the Market, and did not make any progress. My manager comes to tell me " x is so frustrated that no progress has been made and since you have good relationships in the Market, we would like for you to drive this process!" I have been asked to put a procedure documenting exactly every single step and piece of information required to submit to the Market and what we need to do internally. I wonder, what is that woman's real role? I was given two weeks to get this done. I am making up for the time that was loss. The same link that my partner sent after that call that I participated has most of the necessary information. It only took me 20 minutes at a maximum to confirmed the information. People want to be "spoon feed" as my manager said because the other Market Adminstrator did everything for us, unfornatuly, there is only one me, and I am being pulled in all types of direction. On top of my daily operations. Invoice reviews, managing the vendor, driving my own projects, I am also asked to not only project internal partners with the tools and resources needed to execute their functions that pertain to the Mrket, but also document and establish procedures related to those functions. I put my name in the Amazon hat and will start praying for other opportunities. I have been praying a lot about the situation and will trust that God will direct me. Once Dr. Charles said in one of his sermons, " if God has a ribbon with your name on something you want, no matter what happens, nobody can take it away from you, because it belongs to you!" I figured, if it is part of God's perfect will for me to continue here, He will work everything for my good. I am learning to speak up and take care of myself, because nobody in this earth will do it if I don't.
I want to share a sermon from Dr. Charles that blessed me. I hope that it will bless many of you as well.