My grandpa died last year because of lung cancer. He went into a coma during church, and I got the phone, I ran to the hospital faster than the van got there. I ran in, and held his hand, and prayed to God to spare him and take me. I was the only one there that he acknowledged, and I cried. I'm not proud of it, but I cried. I cried harder than ever before.Dad took me to the side and told me that it would help if I go and do something. I just remembered that I had 4-H curling that day. I walked into his room, took his hand again and talked to him. The nurse told me that he couldnt hear me. Dad took her to the side and explained it to her. I was talking to him and dad walked into the room with his cell phone. The nurse gave him special permission to use it. He handed it to me and said that I was spossed to curl in an hour and a half. I couldnt talk on that phone and nodded to him. He said i'd be there. I told Grandpa I'd win something for him-we always talked about my cattle and he said he'd come watch but he never made it-and he squeezed my hand. I was out in the truck and ready to go, still crying, bu tready to go with new determination. Later on, I learned that as I was throwing the last rock of the game and clearing the house to get silver, He died as the rock was released from my hand. I shook uncontrollably, and I couldnt think. Someone was going wierd at me, and a friend told them. At the funeral, I couldn't go up there and see him like that, I just couldn't. I was supposed to carry the cross, but I couldn't. I couldn't beleive he was dead. After a year and a half, I still haven't fulfilled that promise that I made him, but his last words to me were burned in my mind. "I love you. Don't forget that. I'll always be proud of you no matter what you do. Take care of yourself, and be proud of who you are. Take care fo the family for me, and kniow that you can always talk to me, and remember to pray./ And take care of the new pup and your cattle. Even if you aren't beside me, I will always have time to listen, an look at all of the times that we had when you were little. Look at the happy times and not the bad. Would you get those
[email protected]#$%& nurses to leaver me alone?" I hugged him, and he held me for what seemed like forever. Dad said it was time to go, and we left. I brought him my cattle ribbons the next day, the day he went into the coma, because he liked how they looked.
I may not be much Grandpa, I may no thave a lot, butI have you.
I wish you were here today, to see who I've become. I would have traded my life for yours in the blink of an eye, but it's too late. I walk otu into the woods where we used to play, and talk to you. I wuill win one for you, and I hope you can se it!
Now I'm crying and shaking... I have to go splash my face in soem cool water. lol.
Have a Great Day!!!