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I miss you Mom

Nicky

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Yesterday was the 4th anniversary of my mom passing away. She had surgery for colon cancer in March of 2002. They said they got it all and didn't recomend treatment. (She was 79) She never started feeling good after the surgery but I don't think anyone really believed her. She finally got a cat scan in Aug. and it showed cancer in the bones and liver. She got the results on a wed., Dad had to take her to the hospital on that friday because she was so weak. I flew down on the sunday (we were in Circle Mt training dogs on the way to the Prarie trials in Mortlach Sask). Thanks to hospice we were able to bring her home on friday, and my aunt from Toronto flew in that day. Mom was so happy to come home, didn't think she would get to see her house again. Had a good visit with her sister, said she wanted to take a nap while we had supper...and never woke up.

I think of her every day and miss her everyday. Hopefully someday I'll be as nice of a person as she was. She was ready to go home and I know she's waiting for us there.
 

the_jersey_lilly_2000

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Easter Sunday is a tuff day for me. Even tuffer for my dad I"m sure. Not a day goes by that I don't wish I could pick up the phone and call her. But like your mom...she was ready to go. In a much better place now. And what better time to get there than Easter Mornin at sunrise?
 

Nicky

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Easter morning would be a good day to go! Mine died not quite two weeks before my birthday...but she had already bought me a card...so I look at it every year.
 

ranchwife

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Nicky----lost my mom April 15, 1999....she was 49, I was 30 and 8 months pregnant with my youngest child! Her death was sudden....undiagnosed "Addison's Disease" which led to an Addisonian Crisis!!! 7 years later, I still hurt and holidays are always painful as we spent them together!! The first holidays were the worst by far, but with the smiles of my children and the love I know they feel for me and the love of my hero/dad, I have managed to get this far!! I am so very sorry for your loss and I can feel what you are feeling!! May father time and the Good Lord ease the pain and may you always have with you the wonderful memories you created together!!

kris
 

Big Muddy rancher

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I feel for you Nicky, Tams dad passed away just before her birthday and without realizing it the funeral was planned for her birthday. Fortunatly it was changed to the day before but I can still see her blue around that time. Just try to remember the good times you shared.
When you traveled from Circle to Mortlach you were probably not that far from us. Have you met Peter and Pam Gonnet from Broderick Sk. They raise Border collies and trial. My Jack is from their bloodlines.
 

MsSage

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I am sorry Nicky ...I wish I could say it gets easier. After 11 years the pain is still there. Cherish the memory of being able to say Good Bye.
I was 7 months preg with Kaitlyn and in the same hospital a couple days before she died. Right before my birthday, I never knew she was there. No one wanted to upset me so they were going to keep it from me till they knew Kaitlyn was safe. I had tripped and fell flat on my stomach and ended up in the hospital for a couple days with bleeding.

How special, to visit with loved ones at home then take a nap.......

I know this will sound weird but I know myself and a couple other people I know do this. On the day the missing is the worst.....get a balloon and attach a letter and "give it to God" Its amazing to watch the balloon go up .....
Make sure you have plenty of tissues

Sorry Morgan came up with that saying when he lost his balloon from the grocery store in the parking lot.
He looked at it going up and said I gave my balloon to God ...kids :lol:
 

Angus Cattle Shower

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Grandpa died last year, a week beofre the 10th anniversary of Dad's brain tumor surgery, and the day of my provincial curling... I said I'd throw the last rock for him, told him I loved him, and that I'd see him that night, and when I threw the rock, cleared the house and won the game, Dad walked in with tears running down his cheeks and sai that grandpa died in the hospital... I locked myself in my room for the next 3 days until his funeral, and took all of the ribbons that my cow, and his favourite (he called her the sweetie) won, my plaque I won with her, and placed them in his coffin with him. Dad said that he'd never seen anyone do something liek that and that if grandpa would say something he wouldn't be able to because he'd be in tears. Afterwards, people talked to me and when my grandma came over, she sat beside me on the bench, and told me about the greatest phone call he ever got... July 2 1992 Dad called him from the hospital, to tell him that his first grandson was born, me, and grandpa burnt rubber to the hospital to see me. When he got there, he was looking through the nurserey window, and whenever someone would walk by, he'd tell them, look at him, he's my grandson! He was always talking about his grandson, and when the next ones came, he still diddnt seem to enjoy the spotlight as much as he did when I was born. He wanted to go hunting with me when I was old enoguh and he never got to. She said that before he died, he said that he wanted me to take him on one more trip... to Hudson bay, and elk hunting, with his gun. When he died he said I was supposed to hunt one year with that gun, and get him his last buck. I did that l;ast year, but when we went for a doe, and my first deer, and i missed 2 broadside shots at 20 yards, dad was crying again, and I was, and he whispered in myear just as it started to rain, "I think you made grandpa laugh so hard that he wet his pants" and we were laughing, and crying the whole night... when we called home and sent pictures using a friends computer, we were all crying so we had to explain it... I loved every minute of it because he was with me the whole time, even though he wasn't there and able to slap me on the back with a good job, I knew he was there, because he said he would always be there. Now I realized that those memories were more precious than anything in thew world, and make sure you treasure them as much as you can.

Remember, even though they aren't beside you physically, they are always in your heart, and smiling down at you.
 

Hanta Yo

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Nicky,

I'm sorry for your loss, I'm glad you hope to be (and I think you are) like her.

We're thinking about you

sw, Hanta Yo & Montana Cowgurl
 

Nicky

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Big Muddy rancher said:
I feel for you Nicky, Tams dad passed away just before her birthday and without realizing it the funeral was planned for her birthday. Fortunatly it was changed to the day before but I can still see her blue around that time. Just try to remember the good times you shared.
When you traveled from Circle to Mortlach you were probably not that far from us. Have you met Peter and Pam Gonnet from Broderick Sk. They raise Border collies and trial. My Jack is from their bloodlines.

We train bird dogs, not Border collies...so no I haven't met them. Would like to though. We would usually go through N.D. and go to our friends camp in Melita, Man. to train for awhile before the trials started in Mortlach. But since I flew down to Arizona that year Mike just stayed in Circle then went on up to Mortlach.

Thanks everyone, for your thoughts and stories. In the big picture I know I am lucky to have had her for as long as I did, and to still have Dad. Mike lost his mom when he was 14 and his dad when he was 20...both to cancer. Like everyone has said, we just have to treasure the memories that we have.
 

Tap

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That was a nice memorial Nicky. It seems that if your mom was the sort of person you seem to be, that she must have been a great person. :)
 

passin thru

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My heart goes out to you. I have noticed your post but could not bring my self to respond till now. It still hurts don't it.
Best wishes
 

Red Robin

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passin thru said:
My heart goes out to you. I have noticed your post but could not bring my self to respond till now. It still hurts don't it.
Best wishes
Same deal here Nicky. I never know what to say. I hope my kids have fond memories of me when I die. Your mother did a good job.
 

Faster horses

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Nicky, I'm sorry for your sadness, but I understand. I'm glad you had
your mother as long as you did.

My mother passed away May 16 1979, just before her 60th birthday.
She had been diagnosed with cancer in 1974 and we thought she
had it licked, but found out in Jan. of 1979, that she had not.
She just kind of gave up, but until then she had fought the
good fight. Went through a lot. My mother was a very gentle and
kind, caring person. I always think of her compassion for others,
although she had a tough life herself. I wish I was 1/2 the woman she
was.

My dad passed away a year ago tomorrow.

I can tell you, doesn't matter how old you are, when both parents
are gone, you feel like an orphan.
 

katrina

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FH, Hey I'll adopt ya....You're not an orphan..... :cry:
I was very sick the end of june and some of july. And I got a real good dose of what's important in life.... And it's not the money or how big a place ya own. You take a good look at what you will leave in this world. What you have accomplished.... Who will remember you and if what you have accomplished in life will still be there. And the only consolance I could find is that it is all in my children..... That is my legacy... And if all of you just think. Your moms and dads would be vary proud of you... As you are there legacy........
Okay.......enough of the warm fuzzies........ Time to give Jigs crap.....Got to dunk Cal and life goes on...........
 

Faster horses

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You are right as rain, Katrina. We need a dose of what's important from time to time. You just reminded us.

Plus we all need humbled from time to time as well.

Thanks for your thoughts.
 

Ranchy

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((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((( HUGS ))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

I'm sorry that you guys have had to go through such tough times. We are so fortunate, to still have our folks around.
 
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