Hi BMR and Faster Horses,
Thanks for the kind words. I feel a little silly to have posted the pictures of me making those faces, but I'll have them here to recall my journey in Minnesota. As my Mom tells me " Laugh and the world Laughs with you, Cry and you Cry Alone." I am always keep that in the back of my mind. I have been thinking a lot lately about what does it means to be resilient and adaptable? I feel that I have been both throughout my life, there are times that I have felt that I wish I was a "satisfied" type of individual. God gave me a passion for life and a curiosity to learn things which feeds my hunger to become a better person each day, and there is a cost for such drive. I want to live a life that has meaning and find meaning in everything that I do. I am only going to be ME in this world, and I want to make the best of it. I have felt so ungrateful lately for wanting to find a different role or company to work for. I feel ungrateful because I think that God gave me the opportunity to work in Corporate, and here I am, wanting to find a different role because I am having a hard time finding meaning in my work with what I do. I spend 8 hours a day doing something that it is not stimulating, where I am learning about small parcel, but is nothing that really challenges me intellectually. I am learning about UPS and FedEx operations and systems, but when it comes to "learning" about my employer business strategy the opportunity is not really there. I tell myself, why can you just be like everyone else and waste time playing with your phone or go on Facebook during work hours, or yet, do school work? I can't do any of such of things because I am a woman with a lot of integrity and possibly have grown "old school" so when I come to work, I mean business and want to give it my best. I do some "operations" which is really busy work which I get it out of the way immediately, and then I spent a lot of time in meetings that really don't have anything to do with the small parcel, but I am required to attend. On top of that, I have a manager who doesn't have any plans for development for me. I also keep pushing her button, and we don't seem to break the ice at all. She knows I am doing a great job, but what it matters is that I know that I give it my best everyday and even if I am doing busy work, I still get there and get it done. Currently, I am actually applying for other jobs and see what God could present to me. I feel scared, but I also know that I need to be true to myself and if I am not finding meaning in what I am doing, I must find it elsewhere. I truly appreciate palm trees more than ever, they are always so flexible and constantly adjusting to the direction of the wind. I too, want to keep being open to change, and I will follow whatever plan God has for me.
One day, I'll find my little corner of the world, a place where I belong doing something that I love while making a difference in my community.
Have a blissful weekend!
Sweetbasil
P.S. Thank you for your support.
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